What Am I in Service To?

For over a decade I have been sharing my life and my work on instagram.

I have slowly been coming to terms with the truth instagram it is no longer a place I want to spend a lot of attention and energy. There are so many reasons for this, and most of them you’ve probably heard a million times, so I won’t go into all the harrowing statistics about social media and how it negatively affects our health and our ability to think critically and independently.

I tell myself that I need to be on instagram for ‘my business’ but I have done enough inner work in my lifetime, I know better than to really think this fear based belief is a fact.

So, I have decided to take a break from instagram for the summer and put my attention and focus here on Substack.

Some the questions I want to know the answers to:
How do I feel without instagram as a daily activity?
Can I run my business, generate clients, without it?
Will I feel disconnected from friends if I’m not on it?

I’m feeling the desire to do more focused work, research, and contemplative writing and reading. I’m craving more deep focus.

I love instagram for all it’s given me and allowed me to create from just my phone.

It truly is such a miracle in the potential it has to connect people.

I’ve made and sustained a lot of very cherished connections on instagram.

In my personal life and practice I am in a reckoning and reclamation of my attention back to what feeds, nourishes, and moves me towards how I want to feel in my life.

I am deepening my devotion to service and my unique work in the world, and somewhat paradoxically, this is calling me to spend more time in connection with nature, quiet, stillness, and true, whole self listening.

True focus is such a lost art.

I made three posts over on instagram as I took my leave:

1. Who Am I?

2. Ways to Work with Me.

3. What I am in Service To?

I am sharing a longer form version of the What I am in Service To post here.

What I am in Service To

Yes, I run a practice that needs to generate money.

Yes, I charge for my services.

Yes, I value having comforts, safety, and the freedom having a steady income allows.

And, the reason I do the work I do is not for the money or the validation.

I could do a lot of other things that would make a lot more money.

I could find a high paying position somewhere. I have a lot of amazing skills.

I could run my practice in a way that was more “scale-able”

I could charge a lot more for what I do.

I could find “high paying” clients.

I could make my work exclusive or create a system that would allow more people to access it and me to work less.

Maybe I will do some of those things someday.

But only if it would be in service to do so.

Because, the reason I do what I do and offer what I offer and offer it how I offer it; is because it is what is most in service to the energy and frequency that I call: The Mother.

The Mother is where all nourishment is derived and being in service to Her is my mission in life.

The Mother frequency is related to the frequency of Life itself, The Father, Divine Union, The Family, and humanity in its most flawed and perfect forms. And so, I am also in service to these frequencies and you’ll see them woven throughout my work and offerings.

This is not just some fluff I say out front and then in the backend disregard based on metrics or what’s popular or logical. This is my very real and solid barometer and ultimate decider of every step I take, in my personal life, in my business, in my soul.

“What is in service here?” is always my first and most prioritized question.

Serving the legacy of humanity is my mission.

It is crystal clear to me.

My personal practice and journey brings me further and further into alignment and integrity with this energy.

It’s a tight rope to walk at times because there is very little room to be out of integrity with Life and Nourishment.

(hence the social media break when I feel like I’ve recently had the most traction I’ve ever had with social media. It really make no “logical” sense.)

This service to The Mother is the most foundational aspect of my life.

I follow Her. I serve Her. I am not confused about who makes this Life I live possible. I do not get bewildered about who deserves the accolades. It is Her. It is always Her. Not me.

Does this mean I’m no fun and all somber seriousness and never celebrate myself?

No! That would be not be in service to The Mother or Life itself, would it?

Does this mean I don’t have parts of me that wish I could just run away, lay on a beach all day? Of course I do. And in some ways, that is sometimes necessary for me to be in service. The Mother knows how to take care of our earth and bodies.

She knows when to say, “That is enough. Time to rest.”

Serving The Mother definitely is not an all work and no play gig.

I am only human. And I own my creational power, fully, because She lives in and through me.

I will mess up.

Just because I know my mission doesn’t mean I will carry it out perfectly.

I do not serve mothers or fathers or children. I do not serve people. Not myself. I serve a bigger, broader, deeper current.

As I move into this summer of making myself a little less available (via social media break) I just wanted to be abundantly and crystal clear what it is I serve.

I am not just some “business owner” making a living off of coaching people (there is nothing wrong with that, by the way), I am deeply devoted to something much bigger and this is weaved into every thing I write, offer, and hold.

May my Life, words, transmission, being-ness be of service.

May I honor all of Life.

May we remember Her and Her place at the center of our Hearts and Wombs.

May we delight in Her presence all around us.

May we hold and see ourselves as She holds and sees us.

May we all be nourished as we are and remember the abundance of love that is offered all around us.

Amen.

Who Am I?

Professionally..

I teach nourishment for embodiment.

It is my intention that through interacting with my work women are more attuned to themselves and their needs and are able to recieve the nourishment of their lives more fully.

I am a Master Nutrition Therapy Practitioner (MNTP).

I blend my knowledge, experience and extensive training around nutrition, cellular biology and female physiology with my deep practice of divine union in service to creation and Life.

My expertise is in the areas of fertility, gut health, female hormonal health, physiology as well as somatic parts work and the spiritual undercurrent of all dis-ease.

I approach all my work with clients from a bio-energetic framework. I draw on everything from my embodied experience, spiritual practice and study, my own personal health journey as well as over a decade of working with women; one on one and in groups.

Personally..

I am a woman. A mother. A wife. A sister. A daughter. An Earth Friend. A humanity lover.

I belong to the Jefferson River Valley in Montana.

I love local and seasonal wholesome food prepared with reverence and love, deep laughs, authentic relating and raw honesty, attention to the details and beautiful surroundings.

My love language is acts of service and gifts.

I am a Manifesting Generator, Emotionally Defined, 1/3 profile in Human Design.

I am a Taurus Sun, Sag Moon and Cancer Rising.

I feel that working for myself and creating income on my own terms is far safer than being “employed.”

I do not trust the medical industrial complex, big food, big pharma, but I believe individuals are mostly good.

I find Motherhood to be the greatest and most worthwhile “job” in the world and my greatest spiritual endeavor. I would like more children.

I have a very small inner circle, but feel rich in community and am generous with my resources and time.

My highest value is freedom, followed by s p a c e.

What am I doing here?

When I share and write I am transmitting what it feels like to work with me in a professional capacity. This is how I invite people into my work and how I generate income for myself and my family.

I am so grateful for the community we’ve cultivated here and the women who consistently engage and reflect back to me that what I am in service to is entirely needed in this world, that my life of service is indeed received and appreciated.

I don’t do this work for validation, trust me, it wouldn’t work if I did, but to see the ripples from my unique kerplunk of devotion to Life is always satisfying as it is form of art, creation, and expression.

I provide a ton of free content and have been for literally years.

Take your time.

Come into my field slowly.

Look through my feed and links, listen to the Matriarch by Clara Wisner podcast on apple or spotify or read it here on Substack.

You’ll get a great feel for if I am for you.

You are always welcome.

Ways to Work with Me